Tired

I have no focus no drive no way in which to survive
I’ve given up stopped looking and hoping
You look at me with all of that happiness
All of that self-fulfilled tranquility inspite of the circumstance
I just can’t get there, can’t be content
I feel as if I’ve already overspent
My whole heart, my whole life
My soul and I’m tired of all of this strife
This conflict within
The battle the torture
That makes me hold back
Instead of jumping head first……..
right in