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Tuesday, June 28, 2005

How to get me stop dating other people:

Let me see your heart. Love is about being selfless, it’s about the feeling being bigger then anything else, it’s about throwing yourself out there and really really really hoping the other person will catch you when you fall. It’s about not caring even if you do fall because knowing that you gave that person everything will be enough. It’s about letting your heart be broken, stomped on and forgotten; then turning around and coming back for more. Because if there is that inkling, that chance, that one in a million moment when you can stand in the middle of chaos and feel calm simply because your holding that person’s hand, it will make every single struggle worth it. You have to romance me, woo me show me who you are what you stand for and where I fit. Build something with me. Say you are sorry and mean it. Stop quitting and trying, and do something.
Every man loves the chase and honey I am running, can you catch me?

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Just Be

When most people meet
They say hi and they greet
And continue along
Never altered from
The path that they’ve traveled for oh so long

Once and a while two people meet
They say hi and they greet
And suddenly the paths become one big street

And they know they’ll never disagree
They’ll never tire
They’ll never struggle
They won’t even have an ounce of trouble

They’ll walk hand in hand until their days end
Not always lovers
But most definitely the greatest of friends.

Thursday, June 16, 2005

Dream

I can fantasize
and romantasize
I'll dream of you
and pretend we're not two
I'll set the table
and act like we're able
to ignore the tension
to act without apprehension
Eventually you'll quit
and as you fade away bit by bit
You'll be a nice memory
A story
A fable
Something to smile about when I'm finally
Stable.

Monday, June 13, 2005

Hope

Isn't it awesome when you get to inherit furniture?
Seriously isn't it so great to add to your collection of mismatched pieces?
It is so twenty-something to have that unconformed look with the mismatching plates, the two lounge chairs and who can forget that awesome couch.
The couch is always key when setting up a new place, since you have such sparse furniture, your couch is the one thing that probably says something about your personality. Whether you picked it up from a garage sale, it's brand new, or you actually did inherit it from a relative people's couches always say something about them. There are those that actually luck out and get a couch that is a normal color, then you can display it proudly and when you're friends ask where you got it, you can tell them how you're just a lucky person. However, if you get one of those unfortunate worn out looking couches and you have to put a cover on it, you will explain, I am not so lucky and I am trying to cover up the misfortune in my life, but hey good news is you my friend are not cheap. And finally there are those with the unfortunate couch, who actually have the nerve to put a sheet on it, this says, hey I'm unfortunate, I have no money, and I am lazy, I have no life so I am trying to cover up for it.
Creating a false sense around you, so that as you sit on this couch and the sheet slowly slips down showing the couches true colors, you find yourself already sucked in, already a part of this complete and total unfortunate episode of furniture. Soon realizing that you must remove yourself from this debauchery of a couch you must leave as soon as possible, because if you spend one more second on this horrid beast the ugliness of the faded material underneath will surely seep into your soul, blackening your heart forever. Oh, but then you realize that you do not have a blackened heart that you do in fact have hope for this poor little couch, and it's owner. You actually foolishly believe that it can be salvaged that maybe if you tucked the sheet in a little bit better, then it would stay, or if you sat on it a little bit nicer then it wouldn't show its ugly side so often. And that even though you sit there smacked with the reality of the situation you are in, you still hold out hope and eventually you will have to decide. Should you just walk away and leave the couch as is, or should you stick it out and see if it was worth holding onto hope.

Monday, June 06, 2005

I wish I could delete you from my life

FUCK YOU!

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Quick Fix

That’s how you’ll feel better
This is how you’ll move on
By just moving out
You’ll catapult yourself out of here
Like nothing ever existed
As if you never cared

I wish I could be that strong.