logical

Perfect... Perfect match logically speaking, exactly right logically speaking, BULLSEYE logically speaking and on and on and on the logically smart choice list goes. I am always the smart choice. Not the one you feel, not the one you can't live without............. the smart choice. So why oh why everytime I call on You do You answer with a resounding "NO". If I am the smart choice, why do I get put into dumb situations? I try and listen to You I try to accomodate You and trust in You and yet everytime You answer it is with a "NO" and I am left feeling confused, humiliated, and insufficient. You are missing what my real question is, You are not listening to me.......... God damnit. I am trying to tell You, I don't want to be logical I want to be off the mark, mismatched, reckless, and completley off the list. I want to feel free of this perfection that You have blessed me with. This curse I can no longer carry my burden is too much and Your footprints are no where to be found. You inandate me, only to starve later and the samples are no longer sufficient. Hear me please, make me whole before I crumble into nothingness.